WELCOME Fellow Amigans

Hi sir. I feel better right now. My anxiety and grief finally subsided after the incident. Without much a do, Let me tell the whole story. ( hope you have popcorn and soda with you… hehe.)

First things first. I wasn’t able to tell you that my relationship with Roxanne (Master’s daughter) is over long time ago. It’s almost three months since then. (It’s a long story) We remained good friends and still go out every now and then. It was nobody’s fault. We just figure it out that we are not meant for each other and It would be better if we part ways before we hurt both ourselves. But I felt it was such a loss. We could have something special… Now back to the main story… (This had nothing to do with the incident)


It all started after weeks of my break up with Roxanne. We have this family business of school service. Mostly high school students. There was time that our driver got sick and we can’t find a substitute for him. My father can’t do it coz he had his own job. So I have no choice but to fill in the work. ( Remember my job as a driver for a bank manager? Well, actually it didn’t last long. It’s another story.) I came to know this H.S. girl. At first I find her ordinary. Ordinary until there was an instance that she had to sit beside me at the driver’s side of the van. Right then we had our first “hi.” From that moment she felt really special to me. There is something with girl that I like which I can’t explain. We became good friends. Eventually I fell in love with her. I know it isn’t right. I’m 20, she’s 14 (a minor!) My mind says NO but my heart says YES and won over.

I had the chance to tell her what I feel for her. I’m so surprised when she told me that she feels the same way for me. My heart suddenly jumps in joy! I’ve never been that happy in my entire life! It was really different compared with my other relationships before. I feel that she’s the missing puzzle piece of my life. Every now and then she sat right besides me. We always had sweet conversation when I’m taking them to school every morning. We are so much in love with each other… But we have this agreement that we are not supposed to get our relationship that serious yet until We both reach the right time. She’s very good in school, very active and smart and I don’t want her to get distracted because of our relationship. Anyway, she also had this very unusual way of putting me into a test. I always find her making me jealous of someone or something so she could find out if I will be affected badly or not. I always win. I thought I have mastered her way. But I was dead wrong…

A popular singer named “Bamboo” and his band went on a concert last Monday night in our school. Before that she actually invited me to come with her on that concert and told me she’s going to tag along a friend. At the concert night, I arrived earlier than her coz she’s goin to pick her friend up and don’t want me to come along anymore. I waited for them. When they finally arrived, I was so surprised to see that her friend is a boy! At first it was Ok for me. As the band started to play, She and her friend are starting to make sweet gestures to each other in front of me… I suddenly felt emotionally raged! My conscience is telling me to calm down and it’s only one of the tests… But NO! Not like that!!! It’s killing me!!! What happened next is I don’t know if I ‘m with my self conscious… I stood up, approach the guy and pushed him! It was so hard that he flew over the chairs in front of him. He picked himself up and wanted to fight back but he was stopped by the other audiences. My girl got mad to what I did. She shouted at me saying, “ Marvin, Ano ka ba?!!! Pinsan ko siya!” Whaaaat?!!! My God! What have I done?!!! I was so stupid to do that. Why didn’t she said it in the first place?! I tell her sorry and that I didn’t know but she would not listen. She’s not angry coz I failed to pass the test but she’s angry on the way I approached her test. She called her dad up on the phone and ask to pick them up immediately. We didn’t finish the concert. The last word I heard from her before they left me was. “ tignan mo nga yang sarili mo! and tell your self what kind of monster you become!” I tried to call her on the cell and texted but no answer. None until now… I went home cried the whole night like a girl… I was so broken hearted…

The next day, still with hangover I evaluated what happened and recalled every moment that night. I suddenly remembered her last word, “ look at myself…” I realized that I have been an ill-tempered, arrogant, selfish, stupid bastard person… That girl made me learned my lesson the hard way! It turned my life 360 degrees. I promise to become a better person… but then it was too late. I already cost her for my eyes to be opened wide…

I missed her… I really love her… I hope she could forgive me…

Sir, btw, her name is Elaine Jennel. You could check her out in my friendster list with the name of Neobaby. I really want her back… But what can I do Sir? Thanks for giving some time reading my story… So much for my sad ending…
 

Merry Christmas to you and to your fiance and mother!!!!
 

Greetings Marlon,

I assume you've read the reply by now. Just keep in mind to make the correct decision. Listening to your heart may lead to very serious bumbs along the way. Just always ask for guidance from above. He'll always give you a lending hand. He mends broken spirits and strengthen our hearts to face new challenges. That is why He came here in the first place. For you and me and others who believs or not.

Have a Merry Christmas to one and all.

Regards,

Gizz72